pondering

I sit and think of the ways that we let ourselves go. We quit doing some things, or caring about things we used to find important, and wonder what happened. I look back at how I was, and then I guess I got lazy in everything. The physical is what everyone sees, but how do we change back? What is the defining moment that kicks us in the but, and makes us CARE again? I saw a photo, of what I had become, and it hit me hard. I guess that if it is just in the mirror, we can pretend it isn't true. Between that, and someone not believing the picture on the wall was me at 19, I knew it was time. I have worked hard to change the physical aspect, and found myself beginning to care about the other aspects too. My interests became important again, and so did my house and family. As I become more aware of myself, I wonder if I am becoming vain, but realize that I am learning to respect myself. I think trhat is the key. If we respected ourselves in the first place, would we let ourselves go? I am thrilled to report that, while I was 217lbs a year and a half ago, I have managed to lose much of my excess weight. I am now 159lbs, and have only 4lbs to go to reach my goal (Family pictures being taken tomorrow, and anxious to compare with the one from two years ago). It has been a journey of self discovery. I am finding that some interests have resurfaced, and some are completely gone. The neat thing is the ones that I never knew existed. I have also found out what a strong and determined person I can be. It leaves me to ponder the kind of person I may yet become.

"All I Want for Christmas is My 3? Front Teeth"

As many of you know, Parker lost his first tooth a couple weeks ago. He lost the second, two days later. He just lost his third tooth on Thursday morning, and the fourth tooth is on its way out. The two bottom front teeth are already growing in, and they pushed and are pushing the rest out. With any luck his jaw will grow, because these twonew ones are taking up theentire space of the four. It makes it a little hard for him to bite though. We may hve to change the song to "All I Want For Christmas is My Four front Teeth". He isn't complaining though, the tooth fairy is going broke.

catching up

Mom thought this would be a good way to keep everyone posted on what we are doing, but I am apprehensive as always. It seems to take me awhile to get used to new computer programs, so with nervousness I begin. It seems a good Sunday activity. Since no one lives out here, and has seen our house , here is a pic. We are across the street from the St. Lawrence, and can see clear across to the USA. As this is the first enry, I will leave it here (until I see it and get accustomed to it.